will this?

i have plunged so far. and i'm going deeper. This is more than i deserve. I'm not afraid. Nor am i prepared. What will break this cherished fall? How will i be put back into one piece when the impact eventually shatters me? when i am soaked with ridiculous bliss?

The flower you gave me died today. a symbol of your devotion surrended itself to the calling of inevitable fate. will our love's fate be as such? i can feel us moving..furthur apart from each other yet our commitment to each other has never been stronger. i now find myself trusting you entirely. or more so than before, for sure. why is this so? the little gestures i was once suffocated with no longer makes its presence, the touches no longer often, the words are painfully few... but the feeling. the feeling is so overwhelming i might not be able to handle such a burden. is this what happens? when you vow to love someone? when you give your heart to him and cannot have it back? the love is strong but i miss the excitement. our contentment with each other has changed the raging river to placid. the love is certain but i miss the chase. the anger and passion now seems like a sinful pleasure. how we take each other for granted is beyond my comprehension. we hold on and stay and tears joins us in our promises....
but nothing ever lasts...
will this?