i hope not

i feel the end
but i might be wrong
its my intuition talking
and from experiance
i should not trust it
lied to me before
will lie to me again
could be fear
of something new
something distant
something gone
but who am i to say
as we sit here
beside each other
heart to heart
bodies far apart
i say a silent prayer
a ridiculous attempt to conjure a miracle
for this to pass
just another block
a mirage this stubborn self created
but maybe not
maybe its time to stop
smile
try
cry
die
put it on hold
because i say so
because i deserve this much
a say
just some time
to speak what i feel is needed
not what you think
not what you see
what i want
not hapiness
not our once wild adventures
but time
yours
i feel the end
of a celebration
of a devotion
we need salvation