Catastrophe

i jumped
in between stained matresses
i rolled
left to right looking for comfort
i jumped among crush meadows
i breathe
in and out searching for peace
then it rained
and rained
and the rivers seemed to gather
it rained
as though earth gave up its role
i trembled
and within me began to shatter
i close my eyes
as if sight was a sinful enemy
i remain blind
perhaps a moment
or maybe more
lost and secure in familiar darkness
i fought
perhaps i thought i did
a battle of fears
versus rejection
i wasnt alone but without a companion
i fought
and endless battle
until it rained
till new seas emerged
it rained
and i was washed away