tercari-cari

i am easily influenced
easily swayed
easily touched
emotions seem to have fun messing with my body and mind
but i don't mind
i entertain these feelings because sometimes it feels like the only thing constant
only thing real
only thing i own, i have
so it was no surprise the long drive home i had in the middle of the night, alone on the dim-lit highway was the comfort i was searching for.
a movie crossed my mind
a song followed
and an emotion was built.
so questions naturally poped-up
as always
as expected..
why do we hurt the ones we love the most?
why is it so hard to hold on to the ones you need the most?
why is it so difficult to trust the ones you cherish the most?
why is it so easy to walk away but not to forget?
why is it so easy to cry the pains but not speak it out?
why do you look and look but never find...
i miss you
and i hope you miss me too
because you are everything to me
and if i am no longer in your thoughts
i have lost another hold
another bond has died
i may need you more than you need me
and perhaps that is why you gave up
and turned
another bond has died
people say blood is thicker than water
but water washes of stains
and what stains have we left on each other?
of pain and sacrifice and promises of trust
all gone
gone
and i refuse to move even if it means time leaves me
i want to stay
in hopes that you might turn back and find me here