Of small talks & big outcomes..

i'm not a big fan of karma
its not that i don't believe in it
i know it exists
i know that it bites you in the ass at the most inconvenient of times..
i know it exists
but i don't rely on it.
i believe in prayers
i believe in hope
i believe in trust
and i believe in love (i'm a girl, of course i do..)

and this love, that could have never tire, never fade, never be questioned makes me believe again, depend again, feel safe..once again.

i'm grounded now.
again.
i'm whole now.
again.
i'm me now.
finally.

i missed what we had what we shared what we laughed about what we cried about what we fought about what we argued about what we dreamed what we remembered what we hated what we tried to overcome what we lived what we promised.

and i know for the bigger part of it, i was the one who backed away.
maybe i was a coward
maybe i was being cautious
or maybe i was just learning..

whatever it is, i don't regret any of it.

because i went on my path.. which inevitably led me back to yours.

and now i've found my circle. complete. again.

i missed you.
and i hope you have missed me too.

this rubber-band bond you and i have, i hope will never break.. for without my circle, i will be lost. again
you have been, and will always be the one individual in my life that will matter the most.
either you may know it or not
wish to believe it or not
feel it or not
see it or not
you are
and will always be
blood is thicker than water.
blood is stronger than betrayal
this is our blood.
i love you.

p/s: went on a trip to Langkawi.. t'was tres jolie!