splat

pada hati yang tidak tetap bila seharusnya kekal tetap
ku minta kau dengar
pada minda yang kusut dan tak ingin pulih
ku minta kau tenang
pada jiwa yang hilang dan arahnya sesat
ku minta kau pulang
pada niat yang keruh hitam mendalam
ku minta kau pulih jernih
pada jasa yang datang duduk terhimbun
ku minta kau sabar
pada janji yang terukir pasti
ku minta kau kekal
pada diri yang ragu dalam persoalan
ku minta kau sedia

in a totally unrelated note
ive started work and surprisingly enough for the past 2 weeks i don't feel like pushing anyone out of the window just yet.
i feel the moment coming tho, somehwere around the corner lurking.
anyone might trigger it off
perhaps even the lil monthly visitor i feel creeping closer
if news of a female falling from the 7th floor of menara millenuim hits the morning papers then it is confirmed
i cannot handle stress
tsk tsk
that is why i went through the whole i dont think im ready for this thing with abdul
and he went through the whole you got to be kidding me lecture
and it went on and on for a couple of minutes till he had to give in to the call of nature.
it was left at that
me not ready
he wanting me to grow up
hence the ramblings dalam bahasa melayu
so it would not sound painfully identical to my situation
its amazing how bahasa melayu can sound so beautiful to foreigners' ears
but so forgotten by malays/malaysians themselves
omyfucksakesidunnowhat imshittingabout ineedtogooutandgetfoodandgetairandgetawayfromthestupidpcweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

*splat*