holy.damned.forgotten

in dire times
you seek no one else
you conjure the strength
you curse the neglect
you expect the results
you demand the fairness
but in all honesty
where were you?
during the peace, the pleasure,between the euphoria
amidst the laughter, the joy, when immensed with glee?
in bitter times
you ask
you hope
you trust
you pray
hard
slow
repeatedly
in hopes of being heard
to be noticed
to be saved
but you forget
that you climb so high
you reach so far
not on your own
not by your self
but because you were previlaged
to have been touched
to have once known your faith
at a time been devoted
in dire times
you seek
you ask
you want
but you lack
the truth in your intention
the simple fact in your demand
calls for nothing more
than an appreciation
amongst the holy, the damned and the forgotten
you lost your stand
you lost yourself
in these saddening times
i accept fault
i embrace hurt
i agree on a punishment
not of the heart, body or soul
but of the mind
which corrupts and slains
pure connection
a gift
i evoke your powers
at the sake of my selfish desires
i evoke your forgiveness
as regret from a humble follower