Shit conversation

Have you ever had one of those times when you have a conversation with your head? when you figure it beats going to a pyschiatrist who'll charge you half your life's savings. . we're humans, known to be god's smartest creatures ever made for this life.. why not take advantage of our potential? no? if not then my crack has probly gone deeper... tsk
anyhoo.. this is how my conversation went..

what's wrong?
i dunno
how do you feel?
like shit
and?
is there more to shit?
i don't know.. what do you think?
no. nothing more to shit. shits wayy up there
and where are u? up there or lower?
fuck you
excuse me?
fuck you. what kind of question is that?
let me ask you something else then. why do you feel this way?
because im screwed.
who's fault do you think that is?
mine. theirs. yours
mine?
yeah yours.
why is it my fault?
because your asking me questions which makes me feel like just slipping furthur into this pile of shit.
i make you feel that way?
yes
really?
yes
you really mean this?
yes
who else makes you feel this way?
me
you?
yes
you make yourself feel like slipping furthur in?
into the shit. yes
why do you make yourself do that?
because i love it
slipping furthur in?
into the shit yes.
you enjoy it?
yes
you are happy there?
in shit yes
why?
because it has become a part of me
this shit?
yes
your content?
no. i never will be
why not?
because its going to rain
excuse me?
rain. its going to rain. later. tomorrow. next month next year. it's going to rain.
and you don't like that?
no
why not?
because rain is water.
and?
and water washes off shit.
and you'll feel exposed.
no
then how will you be feeling?
clean
and you don't like that?
no
why not?
clean means new. new means beginning. beginning means change. things shouldn't change.
why don't you want things to change?
because change means a new promise
and you don't like promises?
no
because?
because promises breaks you
what makes you strong then?
shit
shit?
shit
why?
because there's nothing to expect. nothing smellier, nothing dirtier, nothing more disgusting, nothing more slimey, nothing thicker, nothing slippier, nothing smarter, nothing stupider, nothing simpler.shit is shit. nothing else to it.
shit
yes. shit.

craaaackkkkkk. there goes my head.