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after 12 years, 5 months and 17 days, i've learned that:

1) its never easy to loose someone, no matter how sudden, how expected, how long you've known them, how recent you've taken them into your life, how close, how familiar, how new or even how different you are from one another.

2) the moment of "i've had enough of crying" will never actually materialize.

3) just when you think you would break down, you will be exceptionally calm.

4) and so, just when you are at the most ease, the pain will break and you shake uncontrollably .

5) love really is the best cure for everything.

someone whom i regard as very very wise once told me, when god takes, god will also give..

and you are so lucky to also know this.
to also embrace this.
to be thankful for this.

and if anything, you know this is just a stop-over for all of us.. we'll catch-up with her soon enough.
in the mean time, we have this love to fall back on.